Aaron and I didn't talk about it all week (although, I did bring it up a few times). Then, Thursday morning Aaron calls me in the morning. While hurriedly getting Ella ready for school and myself ready for work every morning, Aaron always calls to tell me he made it safely to his classroom. But, this phone conversation wasn't a quick, "Hi, I'm here. Give Ella a big hug and big kiss for me."
He told me he had been thinking and decided he's okay with transferring two embryos "or more, if the doctor advises" (his words).
Later, I asked how he came to his decision and he said, first off, he was casually talking to his supervisor about our IVF plans, which she had already known a bit about. She jokingly said that she'd transfer five embryos with the amount we're spending. And even though no doctor in their right mind would allow a healthy young couple, like us, to transfer five (unless, of course, Octomom's doctor!), her statement apparently got to Aaron. He questioned himself. Why he was not willing to risk putting in two? Why he was so unwilling to welcome the possibility of twins into our lives?
Then, he heard a song on K-Love. He's been listening to it more and more on his drives to and from work, which makes me very happy! The song "Lead Me" by Sanctus Real makes him think of me. Here's the music video. Please watch, if you have a chance.
Sanctus Real - Lead Me (Official Music Video)
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A song that changed Aaron's heart a little about our upcoming IVF is Josh Wilson's "Before The Morning." The chorus goes:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming.
So hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning.
We both know our "morning" is coming. This pain that we've been feeling will soon pass and we cannot begin to imagine the joy that's coming. I'm sure once we're holding our baby, all of this pain will be erased and all I will feel is complete and utter JOY!
Aaron's thinking, now, is that with all the money we're putting into this IVF, we should go all out and give it to God. And, what is meant to happen will happen.
So, there you have it, we will be putting in a minimum of two embryos (again, we are assuming we will have at least two healthy embryos). I'm not sure if Dr. Weckstein's opinion of how many to transfer will change given we now know about Aaron's sperm morphology.